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"His New Journey"

The past year has been full of ups and downs. Keith was doing well for the most part. At least as well as could be expected and at times he was great. He hadn't been in the hospital for a year. He has had a positive attitude and a true zest and love of life that has kept him going. His cancer appeared to still be dormant but the struggle with his CHF (congestive heart failure) had been an ongoing daily struggle. He had to watch everything he ate for the sodium count. That was not an easy task! Especially for someone that loved food..
    As quickly as this scary journey began his new journey has begun. My best friend and soul mate passed away very suddenly on March 21, 2011.
   It all just happened so fast! He was going about his normal daily routine except he was feeling pretty good and he was doing more than usual. He got up ate breakfast, took a shower, watched some tv, did dishes, then made himself lunch and back to tv and his puzzle book.
   My boys had come home from school and went out with friends, my daughter went to the bus stop to get my youngest daughter at 3:35.  I stepped out of the room and the next thing I knew he started coughing, he called me to get his oxygen and said he couldn't breathe to call 911..it all just happened so fast there was no time to think.. no sooner did I hang up the phone he became unresponsive and never came out of it. I was  in shock, I felt like I couldn't move or breathe....dumbfounded.
   My daughters came in at 3:42 from the school bus, before the ambulance arrived and I was trying to perform mouth to mouth, I sent them outside in hopes that my 6 year old wouldn't be traumatized, I remember thinking that if I could just get him to breathe everything would be okay. I knew that when she saw my reaction she knew there was something wrong but there was nothing I could do. When the paramedics arrived(it seemed like it took forever) he was in complete cardiac arrest. They worked on him for at least 15 minutes before taking him out. In my heart I already new he was gone. I felt him go, but I was still in disbelief. As if it weren't real. Like a horrible dream. I was trembling from head to toe and I couldn't think. Thank God my sister came. I had scramble to find all of my kids and tell them I was going to the hospital, and clean up the mess from the paramedics before I could leave. If it weren't for my sister I really don't know what I would have done at that moment. My thoughts were just racing.
   I keep reminding myself that he is in a better place and free of misery and that one day we will meet again but it is so hard to imagining our lives without him . 

  I haven't left his side for more than a few hours in the past 2 years. I am feeling very lost and very alone.
Life can be so unfair! I know that we were blessed with the time that we've had with him but it doesn't make it any easier to bear.

 So for now I need to go.
I plan on continuing to write this blog, I think  it  will help me cope with whatever comes our way.

God Bless and Thank you for reading my blog!

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